Life seems frozen.
It’s not that I don’t have a ton of inspiration or lots to write about. I do. Unfortunately, the electric charge of inspiring gets lost in the tangle of making a 60-page thesis read smoothly, hang together conceptually, and not squash the fragile belief that this work may contribute in some way.
I miss you.
Lightening up the grip on 108ZB has to be one of the most frightening things I’ve done. I struggled with the fear of losing the readership, the chatty comments, and the feeling of connection I get when my blogging friends pingback a post. My mentor tells me it’s all about being in alignment with my values. But when fear is a value – in some bizarre way – it precludes alignment.
As long as I cling because I am fearful, I am doomed to careen around my life on a wobbly frame. So, letting go of 108ZB until the thesis got written became important. Not because the thesis is more valued but because adjusting the misalignment – whatever object caused it – must always take priority if practice is to be true to its purpose.
So for the moment, as I come down the home stretch of this writing, let me share with you this amazing post by Carole at Zen Dot Studio: 7 Links. It’s a reflective process identifying different posts in the blog:
The following are the 7 categories:
Most beautiful post
Most popular post
Most controversial post
Most helpful post
Most “surprisingly successful” post
Most neglected post
and finally….the post that makes (the blogger) most proud
I committed to joining in building these links and will set it up for next week when I’m at Rohatsu. If you’d click “like” for post categories in bold, it will be fun to see what you think and make this a community event!
Until then, a safe and Happy Thanksgiving to my US friends and deep gratitude to all of you for being so supportive of me!