trains to nowhere

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Trains to Nowhere

Going down peripheral paths mindlessly is like getting on the wrong train in our mind.  And when we’re on autopilot, we tend to get on trains we ought to let go by.  Imagine standing in a train station, standing on a platform.  We want to take the train to a town nearby and we have a bunch of tickets in our hand.  The trains are not very clearly marked and sometimes they seem to be going to where you want to go.  A train pulls in and, automatically, we hop on.  We’re on autopilot.  A few stations along the way, we realize we’re on the wrong train.  The scenery doesn’t look familiar.  Or maybe it does look familiar but it’s not pleasant, some place we’ve been to and want to avoid revisiting.  Having acted without awareness, we find ourselves in a state of mind we never intended to visit and the journey back may take a while.

We’re born with a large number of train tickets and if we’re not mindful about which train to get on, we can spend much of our time wandering the backroads of our experiences and feeling exhausted from having to find our way back home.  The thinking patterns we encounter when we feel anxious or depressed is typical of what we mean by “getting on the train.”  In one moment, we may be feeling sad or blue; in the next moment we’re caught in feelings of helplessness and hopelessness.  Mindfulness practices allow us to attend to the nature and direction of the train that pulls in to our station.  In terms of emotional experience, mindfulness practices allow us to be aware of the early stirrings of a feeling and see clearly our choice of actions.

Jobs are lost, finances are depleted, friends and family members do leave us.  Illnesses are terminal and pain can be unrelenting.  These are events that have painful consequences for our health, functionality, and relationships.  When we’re deep in such pain, it’s hard to believe this is only the surface of the challenge to perceptions.  At a deeper level, when we are in painful times, our sense of who we are is challenged.  Our definition of who we are, our belief of who we would have been under certain circumstances, and our trust in our capacity to effect change in an individualistic way have been shaken.  Not only is our glass of mud and water stirred up and the vision of our true nature occluded, we are terrified that things will never be the same again.  When we engage in a practice of mindfulness we learn to see clearly that one part of this experience is mud and to remember that the other part is still pure water.

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2 thoughts on “trains to nowhere

  1. Years ago, I went to Europe with a friend and traveled by rail-pass. Intending to go to Rome, we took the wrong train and we ended up in Spain. The journey was extended and we experienced something unplanned. Along the way we met a benefactor who helped us to find our way back and showed us the culture and art of the country we found ourselves in. Metaphors….

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